I've dumped Kay. Which means you won't be seeing very many deviantions about her anymore. I still love her very much, but our relationship isn't going to work out. I'm not going into detail about why I broke up with her, except that it was nothing that she did. It has to do with me, and my decisions in life. I hope she agrees to still be my friend. Because I love spending time with her.

Life has been screaming at us, "It's not meant to be." I wish I could stay but the fact of the matter is that that wouldn't be good for either one of us. I've been away from home for too long and you, I've been trying to find where I wanna be. I'm slowing you down. You'll find what you're looking for faster without me. Love hurts. It takes strength to keep going and right now I just don't have the strength or the willpower. Please just try to understand. My heart dropped to the floor. Could you pick it up for me? I swear I'll get out the stains of my own bloody heart. I just don't want to leave you here by yourself. Never wanted it to turn out this way. Never in a million years did I think that all that happened would never have an effect on you. It changed my life. I didn't think twice about it. Of course I can live without you but what kinda life is that? Once a relationship is over if you experienced more smiles than tears it was worth it. One day you'll come to me and ask me what's more important - you or my life. I'll say my life and you'll walk away never knowing that you're my life. One of these days I'm gonna look into your deep brown eyes and tell you that I love you and kiss your lips, hug you one last time, and with tears in my eyes I'm gonna walk away because you mean too much to me and I can't live without you but I'm gonna turn to look one last time at something I love with all my heart. People always say, "Break up and then get back together." I'm scared of that though because if we're separated what if you like it better? Please don't try so hard to say goodbye. Please, please don't act like I don't care and drift to my heart like a leaf in the air. It's your fault I'm in so much pain. Now leave, just leave, because you drive me insane. Promise me, that's all I want, just to hear a promise that you'll never forget me. Tell me I changed you somehow. Let me know I had an impact on your life. Promise me that you'll always remember me because losing you was hard enough and I don’t wanna go on knowing I meant absolutely nothing to you. Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken then to hurt yourself and put them back together. She stood in the pouring rain screaming her name as she slowly walked away. So here it is - your final lullaby. So sweep away the sand and dry the ocean and just pack the moon and stars up in a cardboard box and stop the clocks from chiming and block the sun from shining and paint the sky a deeper shade of blue because my world has begun without you. So we're not a couple anymore. That doesn’t mean that I don’t have the right to be happy. It doesn’t mean I have to live in the past and that certainly doesn’t mean I have to remember you but the fact is that I'm not happy. I'm still living in the past and I'll always remember you. That girl didn't know you because if she did she would have never walked away from you. Can you hear me scream? This made my week and ruined my year. It's hopeless. Why do I do this to myself? I can't carry this weight much longer. I need to tell you. To call at 7:03 and on your machine I slur a plea for you to come home but I know it's too late.